AT THE DAM
For the last few weeks it's been
raining.
The water at the dam almost runs
level,
rushing in a torrent from Kansas
to Oklahoma,
covering sandbars and lifting caught
logs,
taking them down river to snag
elsewhere.
The worse thing about the rain is
that
it's harvest season. The towhead
wheat,
ready for combines-having lost
its last green
in the June sun-can absorb enough
moisture
to cut into margins most farmers
can't afford,
and even worse the weatherman's
map sweeps
its clouds across the plains like
a clown
or a politician pursuing sound
bites-
heat and thunder and the illusion
of relief
from a downpour-when what's needed
is more light.
Then from Texas to the Dakotas
it clears. And whole states sigh,
the wheat ripe,
the combines ready for fields too
wet before
to get-to to harvest, and the farmers
impatient with the scarcity of
machines.
But when high water comes to the
dam
guys come from their houses and
watching
TV with their pregnant wives, to
set
trotlines or to cast a worm and
sinker
to the bottom for a catfish or
carp,
a drum or whatever-down there all
night
or in the afternoon after work,
even
in morning for those out of a job
and needing
a big one to boast about or to
make a meal.
And I go down to the dam in the
morning
to have a beer with the guys who
just stand,
keeping the talk going from one
cluster
of stories to another, or grappling
a little to reestablish pecking
order
or just to release the tension
from work,
for these guys are mostly employed,
mostly
working third shift. Some have
brought their kids
since this is the week they have
custody.
Others are on the outs with their
woman
or have found a new one who must
pay her dues
by visiting with a mouthful of kisses-
hoping this new guy will take care
of her kids,
hoping this charge of new sex will
work.
And this is America, so you have
the standard assortment-a Laotian
refugee with tatoos all over his
body,
who's the smallest but a definite
kick
in Tae Kwon Do, so he's left alone-
the biggest, a black guy, who's
always invading
the space of others-the Mexican-American
with his pigtail supporting two
cultures-
and four or five white American
Standards.
And the cans go flying into the
back
of a pickup, and the stories go
around,
and time passes before sleep and
another day
at the plastic factory making coolers
for a middle class doctor in Atlanta-
or at the State Hospital so that
a retired
recorder of deeds with a yard full
of flowers
won't have to see the mentally
retarded
or the oil field worker who pulls
old pipe
and replaces it with new so that
we
can compress the crude up, crack
it, tank it,
and pump it into the car of an
art
professor in North Carolina-
or the welder who works in the heat
of huge drums, making mufflers
that fit over
the units for cooling entire skyscrapers,
to keep a film editor at ABC
in relative quiet in his noisy
city.
And the wheat, when dry, travels
all over
the world in tankers to supply
our former
and present friends. From here
on the plains, here
in Kansas, in fields surrounding
this town,
the wheat is so hard, thick, and
plentiful
with energy that we almost can feed
ourselves and the world. Who in
New York
or Kiev or Kenya really knows this?
Who among the guys down at the
dam
really gives a damn? The water
chums
and gives the impression of cleaning
things up.
Its roar blocks everything out
but watching
the lines as they pull in the current.
The beer goes down as it did the
day before.
A laborer goes off to pour concrete
in forms.
A grease gray finger gets cut by
a hook.
Someone pulls-in a thirty-six pounder.
Someone gets another beer. On the
other side
of the river, in an undulating
bend
of the Walnut River, in a place
cut off
by a small ridge of land, the Kickapoo
kept their horses in a natural
corral.
Even then the catfish were running.
Even then they smoked with their
neighbors.
Even then we depended on each other.
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